That feel

Have you ever had a feeling like you just weren't important? That everything you're doing has no point? That anything you do is bound to fail, no matter what? That your whole life you're just going to be a sad pile of worthless person? I'm definitely feeling that right now. Like I'm a huge failure that can't do anything right. I'm bound to work a minimum wage job because I failed highschool and can't do anything productive with my life. Well I haven't failed yet but if things keep going the way they are, I'm sure I won't be far away from it. I'm slowly spiraling farther and farther down and the farther down you go the harder it is to get back up. Pretty soon its going to be impossible to fix anything that I've done wrong. I'm sick and tired of failing everything I do. I'm tired of not having any motivation at all to do anything. It makes me so mad that I can't do the things that I'm supposed to do, yet I do nothing about it. I just don't know how to fix everything I've destroyed. I've lost my will to keep going. I'm not going to kill myself or anything but I just hate where I am and what I'm doing right now. It's just really frustrating.

Money is the root of all cool things.

I've been trying to get a job here in muncie since I started college, but whenever someone's hiring I dont even get a call after i apply. no, "sorry we filled the spot" or "sorry you weren't qualified" nothing. absolutely, nothing. it makes me so mad. at least have the common curtesy to tell me the result of my application, dont just ignore me. GRAHHH.

On a more positive note, I earn about 150 bucks a month from biolife by donating plasma, so that isn't too bad. :D I should probably start doing that again. Maybe I will tomorrow.

I really want to get myself a new watch. The one I have now, while it's not bad, I would like something better. The black finish is wearing off and it's looking dated (no pun intended). (okay that was a bad joke. but still...) I dont know what I should get though, I like black sleek watches, and I really love Movado watches, but they are WAAAAAAY out of my price range. They certainly look sexy though. My Armitron is a cheap imitation of what they look like, and even though I love how my watch looks, I can't help but be jealous.

Just look at how damn sexy this thing is.

I love that watch. I don't love it's price tag however. 1,600 is just not in my wallet right now. That's all the money I have in checking AND savings. Not happening anytime soon. Unless someone wants to give me a very generous donation. (but I seriously doubt that, and even if I had that much, it would go to three things. 1. Car fund 2. savings and 3. Girlfriend. :D)

Oh well. My watch is still ticking, and I'm okay with that. 

Atrocious

Pharmacists Who Suck at Their Job Tell Teens They Can't Have Morning-After Pill [Plan B]

Read this link for me would you? Go ahead ill give you time.....

Now, can anyone tell me how lying to kids just so they uphold their own skewed moral beliefs is legal, and better yet, how misinformation like this is even permitted in the workplace? Oh that's right, because their boss is probably operating on the same moral compass.

I just can't believe that people would do this. Maybe they're just dumb? I don't know. But its outrageous and I wont stand for it. Its just not fair to do that to someone. They are trying to be responsible for their actions and fix what they've done, but you're dooming them to a horrible life because you have a personal moral vendetta against people having sex underage? Get over it! People are having sex at 14 and 15, and even if it was legal for them, I bet you you'd be lying to them too!

That just makes me mad. I hate when people do things like this. Its just not in the best interest for humanity. You're not being nice to your fellow human, which is two of your commandments broken. (Well the golden rule and lying)

I was going to end this post with some more joyous news, but now I can't even think of any, im just so mad.